And I… I don't want to leave a legacy
I don't care if they remember me
Only Jesus
And I… I've only got one life to live
I'll let every second point to Him
Only Jesus
All the kingdoms built, all the trophies won
Will crumble into dust when it's said and done
'Cause all that really matters
Did I live the truth to the ones I love?
Was my life the proof that there is only One
Whose name will last forever?
Heartache, loss, change, transition tears and goodbyes characterized my life in the last few months. There is joy too in the people I've loved, the activities accomplished and that "finished well" my time in Tuxpan. I felt my heart being ripped out as I packed up my house, sent my dogs to new homes, and leave behind the beautiful friendships I have in that city. I've struggled to accept God's peace and joy in the midst of it all, trusting that His plans are for the best. That He will give me a "hope and a future." I know my eyes need to be fixed on Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, and on the heavenly home, the reward that will last forever and that will never be taken away from me. That doesn't make my pain any less real, but brings hope that He will make it worthwhile, that this is good for me as I learn to hold lightly to the things of this world.
In the end, it's about Jesus, and only Jesus. When I first heard the song I rebelled, I DO want to be remembered, I do want those whose lives I've invested in remember the crazy gringo with the red pickup truck who loved on lots of kiddos. Yet, it's true. What do I want them to remember? What has been my life's purpose, is it not to point them to Jesus? Only He lasts forever, only He can change hearts and bring peace. Did I point them to the God of love, forgiveness? Pain and heartache are all around us. Maybe tomorrow this will seem so far away and it won't hurt anymore. God is the same, yesterday, today and forever. Meantime, I'll have the opportunity to point a new generation to Jesus. My prayer is that indeed when all is said and done, my life will be a proof that there in only One who will last forever. May I point to Him...Only Jesus.
